Most of you get my title. Some of you may not. It is a reference to an episode on Saved By The Bell. I happen to think this is still the Best. Show. Ever.
Here is a clip:Jessie Spano so excited!
So why do I think I need her Caffine pills? There is never enough time! Seriously. What I am about to share with y’all is true.
It may either scare some of you who are contemplating doing life alone.
It may make some of you more grateful that you don’t do life alone.
It may make some single moms out there cry knowing they are not alone.
Whatever it does to you please note I am not complaining; just sharing my season of life right now.
My schedule is crazy. I officially have decided busy is an understatement!
There is 7 days in a week. 24 hours in a day. So 168 hours in a week. I know I know…simple math but stay with me gotta set up the word problem.
I have one job I work roughly 40 hours.
I have another job that I work 25 hours a week. Some weeks I can do 30.
It takes me about 20 minutes to work in the morning and 20 minutes home in the evening. The two jobs are minutes apart. So drive time I will say each week is 3 hours (probably more but just for good measure).
So here is the math: 168-40-25-3 equals 100. Are you tired yet?
So now I am down to 100 hours. I sleep about 6 hours a night. So 42 hours a week I am sleeping or try to sleep. See my earlier post and you would know I don’t sleep that much.
So 58 hours a week is what I have left in my time bank. Which Monday thru Friday I have around 5 hours a day in which I am left trying to fit in: showering, eating, being a mom, laundry, cleaning, cooking, being a friend, going to the gym, etc etc.
Saturday and Sunday there is groceries to be bought. Work to still be done. Extra activities to participate in. This is why I lately I can’t do it all. Or be it all. I don’t always get to return phone calls; even text messages. Or send the perfect email. Or get to do all the fun things I want to do! Some days I am wanting to put up my feet and watch Netflix all day, but I feel guilty as soon as I even try to rest.
However, I am trying to be excited. Trying. Some days I am VERY excited to see where God takes me. Excited to be in this season but even more excited to see where this season takes me. I am grateful for the provision, the strength, the grace and NEW mercy given to me daily.
Some days I am scared. Very scared. Scared of failing as a mom. As an employee. As a friend. Scared I am going to screw it all up. Wondering where did my day go? Looking at the clock thinking man will I be able to do that or this today? How will I ever make it through the week?
One thing for sure is I don’t need Jessie’s pills.
He is my hope. This season may be busy. However, there is a reason. There is beauty even in all of this. I just have to trust him. Ask to see the lesson. Ask to see the beauty. Ask for rest. Ask for my steps to be directed daily so I don’t miss any opportunity.
So single mommas out there: I raise my glass to you tonight! I am so proud of every single one of you. Keeping up with the crazy schedules! You go girl! Keep it up! Don’t be scared! He has you! Be excited! Drink that coffee but more importantly be still and know.